so last night i ate an entire baked spaghetti squash and this morning i ate half a cantaloupe something seems really wrong with all of this but i can’t tell quite what it is,
in other news i’m wearing really nice clothes that i bought entirely from graduating theater students and i either look dapper as shit or stupid as hell idk
i’m just really ready to make this day the most positive day it can be bc i’m so freakin sick of these terrible days.
i don’t know how to write anymore and i’m pretty upset about it.
apple and turkey sandwich okay NO PURGING GEEZE OKAY
blood labs back this morning
anemia? ooooo that might explain the constant headaches and chronic fatigue. silly me, i thought it had something to do with that whole bulimia thing.
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
i want sexy time without actually needing to expose myself to another person help
first shower in the ballpark of 2-3 weeks look at me taking care of myself
What did I even eat today?
Coffee, steamed tofu and marsala and roasted seaweed sank before work. the equivalent of two large brownies, two oatmeal cookies, a slice of rye bread with turkey, lettuce, tomato and jalapeños at work. A banana, a “guilt-free” frozen trader joes meal and a few bites of cinnamon breakfast quinoa after work. I feel terrible, but is it because I ate way too much, or too little? My body can’t decide if its distended with fullness or gnawing with hunger. My mind can’t settle with the contents of my intake. I want to sleep, but I can’t seem to shut off. Tomorrow is going to be a long day.
I haven’t showered in so long I think I’m starting to ferment.
i’m trying out this “softcup” menstrual cup business and i really hope it works because i’m going to work now HAH
it’s time, i’m ready to check out now.
ate too much. stressed? stressed